Of being here..

J asked me recently, how do I like living in UK? And my answer was, "Best." Probably not a good answer to your boyfriend who's thousand of miles away from you, heh. But that's me I guess, honest to a fault at times.

"Best" though is very subjective. Another person living my life here now in this godforesaken place may be screaming to go home within a week! In fact, shortly before I came here, a friend of a friend had warned me that I'm going to be living a life of impending boredom here.

But I think it depends on what you look for to make you happy.

And what I wanted to do was to get down from the "merry-go-round of my current life" and just walk in the park or sit down and just read a book. Don't get me wrong, I love my life. Alhamdulillah, things have been great for me. It's just that, it feels too much like, well like a merry-go-round, it just goes round the circle and seems to go nowhere.

Being here, to some degree is quite liberating. It's as though you are charting new path(s) in life. Suddenly you have dreams again. You can choose what you want to be. And you can choose who you want to be.

I like that last part the most i.e. a chance to re-invent myself. It is as close to the opportunity to being "re-born", to put it in an extreme. Whether you emerged a different person is another thing altogether. Probably you will end up being your most comfortable self again. But the possibility of it is just exciting.

I am loving it here for the fact that my life now feels like it has a purpose, a goal. I love the fact that I am learning new things, not only in the classroom, but new things in life itself, and learning new things about myself as well. And I am loving the fact that I get to make changes to myself, improve myself and be a better person, hopefully.

So, yes, I am loving it here. Do I want to stay here for more than a year? Most probably not. But will I get on that merry-go-round again, that remains to be seen.