On being the loving me

A friend of mine sent me a link today to do a personality test. For some reason, after reading hers, I was interested to try it as well. And here's the result:

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Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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To some extent, it did manage to describe me accurately enough, but there's still some big holes to it.

I like serious, smart and determined person. But what I love more is someone who can make me laugh, who can engage me with his conversation and at the same time loves to listen to my stories as well, Most importantly, I want my soulmate, my other half to share the same values that I do.

The right job for me is doing something that inspires me, that allows me to learn new things, allows me to improve myself, and makes me look forward to go to work everyday. Great and inspiring colleagues are a must as well :)

I have an extreme view on success actually. Success to me is a combination of character, iman, strength of will, opinions, and ultimately his/her action and reaction. A person that does excellence work, have impeccable character and do all the right thing yet does not solat and neglect improving his/her faith is not yet a successful person in my eyes. Which is why I see a long, long journey to success for me.

What am I most afraid of? In some ways, it's true, I am afraid of having a rug pulled from my feet without me being ready for it. But that's not really the worst of my fears. I am more afraid of being indebted to another person. I can't stand it when a person turn on me and accuse me of being ungrateful. Especially if it is someone I trust and care about. I always believe that when a person does something for me, it was done dengan ikhlas. But I have had some bad experience on this that now I do try to avoid as much as possible asking for help unless I don't have any other choice. Having said that, on my side I don't mind helping others on something that I am willing and able to do, and insya Allah it will be done dengan ikhlas.

My true self can only be judged by those that are close to me and had seen me at both my best and my worst. Though I did remember one description given to me once long, long ago: that I am a rational person. :) I admit I have a quick temper and can be quite emotional at times, but I am never irrational. Just give me some time to cool down and explain to me in a rational voice, I will listen and consider your point of view.