Sacrificing our loved ones

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha.

It's been a good Raya so far, alhamdulillah. God had paused the rain for these two days to allow us to have a sunny Raya. :)

My mum when all out this time since we didn't celebrate Aidilfitri at home this year. So we've been served one cuisine after another and haven't stop eating since morning. The poor stove had not had any rest since yesterday :p hehe.

Since this is Hari Raya Qurban, as per usual we are being reminded of the sacrifice made by our dear Prophet Ibrahim who was tested by Allah in one of the greatest test any man, any father has to through - to slaughter his own beloved son. This, I believe is one of the highest degree of "sami'naa, wa a'to'naa" (we hear and we obey).

His sacrifice made me reflect upon the tight hold that we have on our loved ones. The love that we have for our loved ones is almost akin to the deadly grasp of an octopus around our heart. The idea of losing our loved ones is like pulling out our heart from our body. In normal situation, this love helps to nurture our relationships and made everything seems rosy. When something bad happened, you will literally feel the tight squeeze in your heart.

I guess it is about learning to let go. The concept of redha is a deep one. One that is not so easily learned, much less mastered.

But master them, we must, for our own sake and sanity.

Updates

It's been a month and a half already since I got back. It had been surprisingly easy to go back into the same routine again. I wasn't very happy about it. I'm fighting it but so far no success. Problem is, I haven't been able to introduce any new alternatives to my life.

I need new life projects!

One thing is in the way now - money. Or the lack of it.

Since coming back, I've been hit by one bill after the other, one expenses on top of others and it just amaze me how fast your money gets depleted from your account.

One thing that I've noticed about being a student (undergrad and postgrad) is the freedom from bills and major expenses. The only bill that I have to worry about for the last one year was my accomodation payment at every quarter.

And while my allowance was quite "ciput" (as compared to current salary), I feel I can afford more things with that ciput allowance than with a 4 figure salary :p.

Anyhow, I guess that is part and parcel of working life I guess.

Well, that's all for today.

Good news is, I'm in the process of putting in the Streamyx connection to my home already, yeay! (though don't expect it to be in my home that soon :p)

I'll leave you with a pantun pengajaran cerita kura-kura dan arnab menurut Upin dan Ipin:

"Jangan tidur di siang hari,
Nanti kalah lumba lari."

Hehehe.

Later folks. I see u when I see u.