Saturday, March 14, 2009
Friday, March 13, 2009
On being the loving me
A friend of mine sent me a link today to do a personality test. For some reason, after reading hers, I was interested to try it as well. And here's the result:
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Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
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To some extent, it did manage to describe me accurately enough, but there's still some big holes to it.
I like serious, smart and determined person. But what I love more is someone who can make me laugh, who can engage me with his conversation and at the same time loves to listen to my stories as well, Most importantly, I want my soulmate, my other half to share the same values that I do.
The right job for me is doing something that inspires me, that allows me to learn new things, allows me to improve myself, and makes me look forward to go to work everyday. Great and inspiring colleagues are a must as well :)
I have an extreme view on success actually. Success to me is a combination of character, iman, strength of will, opinions, and ultimately his/her action and reaction. A person that does excellence work, have impeccable character and do all the right thing yet does not solat and neglect improving his/her faith is not yet a successful person in my eyes. Which is why I see a long, long journey to success for me.
What am I most afraid of? In some ways, it's true, I am afraid of having a rug pulled from my feet without me being ready for it. But that's not really the worst of my fears. I am more afraid of being indebted to another person. I can't stand it when a person turn on me and accuse me of being ungrateful. Especially if it is someone I trust and care about. I always believe that when a person does something for me, it was done dengan ikhlas. But I have had some bad experience on this that now I do try to avoid as much as possible asking for help unless I don't have any other choice. Having said that, on my side I don't mind helping others on something that I am willing and able to do, and insya Allah it will be done dengan ikhlas.
My true self can only be judged by those that are close to me and had seen me at both my best and my worst. Though I did remember one description given to me once long, long ago: that I am a rational person. :) I admit I have a quick temper and can be quite emotional at times, but I am never irrational. Just give me some time to cool down and explain to me in a rational voice, I will listen and consider your point of view.
________________________________________________________
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
________________________________________________________
To some extent, it did manage to describe me accurately enough, but there's still some big holes to it.
I like serious, smart and determined person. But what I love more is someone who can make me laugh, who can engage me with his conversation and at the same time loves to listen to my stories as well, Most importantly, I want my soulmate, my other half to share the same values that I do.
The right job for me is doing something that inspires me, that allows me to learn new things, allows me to improve myself, and makes me look forward to go to work everyday. Great and inspiring colleagues are a must as well :)
I have an extreme view on success actually. Success to me is a combination of character, iman, strength of will, opinions, and ultimately his/her action and reaction. A person that does excellence work, have impeccable character and do all the right thing yet does not solat and neglect improving his/her faith is not yet a successful person in my eyes. Which is why I see a long, long journey to success for me.
What am I most afraid of? In some ways, it's true, I am afraid of having a rug pulled from my feet without me being ready for it. But that's not really the worst of my fears. I am more afraid of being indebted to another person. I can't stand it when a person turn on me and accuse me of being ungrateful. Especially if it is someone I trust and care about. I always believe that when a person does something for me, it was done dengan ikhlas. But I have had some bad experience on this that now I do try to avoid as much as possible asking for help unless I don't have any other choice. Having said that, on my side I don't mind helping others on something that I am willing and able to do, and insya Allah it will be done dengan ikhlas.
My true self can only be judged by those that are close to me and had seen me at both my best and my worst. Though I did remember one description given to me once long, long ago: that I am a rational person. :) I admit I have a quick temper and can be quite emotional at times, but I am never irrational. Just give me some time to cool down and explain to me in a rational voice, I will listen and consider your point of view.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Nizar in BBC
Imagine that. The removal of a state MB actually made top news in BBC for its news in Asia Pacific, coming in third after closure of US military base in Kyrgystan and Toyota's loss forecast.
Hehe, not bad Malaysia. :p
Hehe, not bad Malaysia. :p
Thursday, February 5, 2009
The Perak fiasco
I haven't been following the news in Malaysia for a while now, partly because I had been focused on the Gaza issue, and partly due to the piling of assignments now that I'm in week 4 of the new term. So I was very surprised by the latest development happening in Malaysia, particularly of course in the state of Perak.
I had two views on it, the straightforward view, which I'm hoping is all there is to it, and the more alarming "conspiracy theory" view, which I hope is just something from my overactive imagination.
If it is indeed a straightforward occurence, of people jumping parties and tipping the seat balance towards the opposition, i.e. BN, then I believe there is a valid reason why the esteemed and wise Sultan Azlan Shah did not decide to dissolve the State parliament. If parliament is dissolved, it is most likely that PR will win the state, and with a bigger majority. So it is highly likely that the Sultan does not want PR to continue to rule Perak. There must be some incidents that had not pleased the Sultan at all for him to make the royal decree on it. My guess would be on the land issue.
Personally for me, I think that in this time of economic recession, it makes more sense not to throw money on organizing more elections. To the people in Perak, I think they can already vouched that there had not been much difference between the previous government and the current one (PR).
On the second view though, if PR is a more cunning party than we thought they are, and Anwar is truly backed by the hated intelligence unit from US as some people are claiming, then this fiasco in Perak could just be his testbed to understand the reaction in making the coup through "frog" politicians. Maybe he is really bidding his time to put in his moves for a checkmate.
Well, I guess we just have to wait and see.
Too many people dreaming of power, yet none is using it for what it is meant to be.
The irony of the fiasco in Perak is on those that had supported whole-heartedly Anwar's attempt to wrest control from the main government through bribing BN's MPs to crossover, but now crying foul when BN had used the same tactic successfully.
While for Nizar, I actually had some high regards for him, but I have to say I wasn't very impressed by his attempts to hang on to his MB position.
I hope that BN would do better than they did previously. They will face tough time as the perception of them are just too low that nothing they do will ever be seen as good at all. But they will have to try as they are also holding on to the position by a thin thread.
Truthfully, I am really tired of the political struggle that we are facing. I hope we will never turn into Thailand that in the end were never satisfied with whatever leader they had chosen.
ps: I am actually intrigued by the idea of having the monarchy back. But only if it is Sultan Azlan Shah and Raja Nazrin ;)
I had two views on it, the straightforward view, which I'm hoping is all there is to it, and the more alarming "conspiracy theory" view, which I hope is just something from my overactive imagination.
If it is indeed a straightforward occurence, of people jumping parties and tipping the seat balance towards the opposition, i.e. BN, then I believe there is a valid reason why the esteemed and wise Sultan Azlan Shah did not decide to dissolve the State parliament. If parliament is dissolved, it is most likely that PR will win the state, and with a bigger majority. So it is highly likely that the Sultan does not want PR to continue to rule Perak. There must be some incidents that had not pleased the Sultan at all for him to make the royal decree on it. My guess would be on the land issue.
Personally for me, I think that in this time of economic recession, it makes more sense not to throw money on organizing more elections. To the people in Perak, I think they can already vouched that there had not been much difference between the previous government and the current one (PR).
On the second view though, if PR is a more cunning party than we thought they are, and Anwar is truly backed by the hated intelligence unit from US as some people are claiming, then this fiasco in Perak could just be his testbed to understand the reaction in making the coup through "frog" politicians. Maybe he is really bidding his time to put in his moves for a checkmate.
Well, I guess we just have to wait and see.
Too many people dreaming of power, yet none is using it for what it is meant to be.
The irony of the fiasco in Perak is on those that had supported whole-heartedly Anwar's attempt to wrest control from the main government through bribing BN's MPs to crossover, but now crying foul when BN had used the same tactic successfully.
While for Nizar, I actually had some high regards for him, but I have to say I wasn't very impressed by his attempts to hang on to his MB position.
I hope that BN would do better than they did previously. They will face tough time as the perception of them are just too low that nothing they do will ever be seen as good at all. But they will have to try as they are also holding on to the position by a thin thread.
Truthfully, I am really tired of the political struggle that we are facing. I hope we will never turn into Thailand that in the end were never satisfied with whatever leader they had chosen.
ps: I am actually intrigued by the idea of having the monarchy back. But only if it is Sultan Azlan Shah and Raja Nazrin ;)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
End with the old, in with the new.
It is now Week 2 of Term 2. Last Friday was the final submission date for the final assignment of the modules in Term 1, even though Term 2 had already started. That's the UK system for you. The 4 weeks holiday given are not for you to spend them partay-ing. The expect you to bury your head into the books. :p I had 3 assignments and 1 exam to study for for the holiday. But I did manage to sneak off to Southern Spain and shopping sakan on Boxing Day in Glasgow, muahahaha :D
Yup, the blog was on hiatus for a while, partly due to the hectic 2 weeks before the holiday where a few of the assignments were due (especially the killer "Informating" essay), another part would be my trip to Spain and Glasgow, and lastly of course the 3 weeks of completing the last 3 assignments and exam for term 1. I feel like I've been writing essays for ages already.
The worst part was that on the day that I submitted the final assignment i.e. last Friday, we got the result for the killer essay. It wasn't good. Well, 3/4 of the class got about the same marks for the essay, so it can be considered an average score. Even the lecturer said it was a good mark, haha. Funny. The good thing though, after meeting up with the lecturer, I know what mistakes that I made, what should I improve on. Given that this was my first attempt at academic writing, I guess I have to give myself a break. Plus, he said mine was among the better ones for that particular topic (I hope that wasn't just lip service :p).
New year came quietly for me this year. I hardly noticed it at all as my calendar is now based on the academic calendar, hehe. I spent the whole day in the room doing my assignment. I haven't celebrate new year for quite some time now, and have stopped doing all the new year resolution thingy for ages. It had never worked for me anyway, :p. What I normally did though, was to identify my focus for the new year. This helped to shape my behaviour and what I'd do for that year.
Last new year was a turbulent time for me. I couldn't recall what was the trigger. But I remember the sense of being lost, being lonely, being restless and being stagnant. Like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. Like being on a straight road in the middle of the desert, not knowing when will be the end and whether there will be change of scenery. Like a never-ending emptiness in front of you. It was a defining moment for me. A paradigm shift. Multiple ones. I found myself creating possibilities in my head that I would never consider before. During that time, I had almost changed my job, something I never see myself doing, at least not for another 5 years. I found myself considering the idea of renting out my apartment, something I never I thought I would do at all, given how much I love my place. I had even thought about going to work overseas, haha. But I think that was just wishful thinking. I don't think I am that good to be hired by an overseas company. And I think it will be just too lonely to do so.
Allah Maha Kaya and Maha Mengetahui. He had already made plans for us all. A few weeks into the new year, a friend told me about an opening for a scholarship to do Masters program in UK. I was quite hesitant initially. While doing my Masters was something that I had dreamt of for a long time already, there had never been an opportunity for it. And I had kind of buried it for a while. Buried, but never forgotten though. However, it was still a big step for me to do it at this stage, to uproot myself for a year to go study in UK, what with all my commitments, work, financial, personal, etc. But with taufiq dan hidayah dari Allah, He showed me the way. And He also gave me the strong support from my loved ones and my boss that had helped strengthened my resolve. Now, I felt like I'm on a new road with a new scenery. The possibilities of what this journey will give me is just endless. My hope is that I can experience them all and go out at the other end a better person.
I am still in that journey. This new year will be about learning, taking and experiencing as much as possible and become an improved person in all aspects - a more mature and respected individual, a more contributing member of the community and a more knowledgeable IT professional. To my loved ones, I hope they'll accept me and love me as much as before.
Yup, the blog was on hiatus for a while, partly due to the hectic 2 weeks before the holiday where a few of the assignments were due (especially the killer "Informating" essay), another part would be my trip to Spain and Glasgow, and lastly of course the 3 weeks of completing the last 3 assignments and exam for term 1. I feel like I've been writing essays for ages already.
The worst part was that on the day that I submitted the final assignment i.e. last Friday, we got the result for the killer essay. It wasn't good. Well, 3/4 of the class got about the same marks for the essay, so it can be considered an average score. Even the lecturer said it was a good mark, haha. Funny. The good thing though, after meeting up with the lecturer, I know what mistakes that I made, what should I improve on. Given that this was my first attempt at academic writing, I guess I have to give myself a break. Plus, he said mine was among the better ones for that particular topic (I hope that wasn't just lip service :p).
New year came quietly for me this year. I hardly noticed it at all as my calendar is now based on the academic calendar, hehe. I spent the whole day in the room doing my assignment. I haven't celebrate new year for quite some time now, and have stopped doing all the new year resolution thingy for ages. It had never worked for me anyway, :p. What I normally did though, was to identify my focus for the new year. This helped to shape my behaviour and what I'd do for that year.
Last new year was a turbulent time for me. I couldn't recall what was the trigger. But I remember the sense of being lost, being lonely, being restless and being stagnant. Like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. Like being on a straight road in the middle of the desert, not knowing when will be the end and whether there will be change of scenery. Like a never-ending emptiness in front of you. It was a defining moment for me. A paradigm shift. Multiple ones. I found myself creating possibilities in my head that I would never consider before. During that time, I had almost changed my job, something I never see myself doing, at least not for another 5 years. I found myself considering the idea of renting out my apartment, something I never I thought I would do at all, given how much I love my place. I had even thought about going to work overseas, haha. But I think that was just wishful thinking. I don't think I am that good to be hired by an overseas company. And I think it will be just too lonely to do so.
Allah Maha Kaya and Maha Mengetahui. He had already made plans for us all. A few weeks into the new year, a friend told me about an opening for a scholarship to do Masters program in UK. I was quite hesitant initially. While doing my Masters was something that I had dreamt of for a long time already, there had never been an opportunity for it. And I had kind of buried it for a while. Buried, but never forgotten though. However, it was still a big step for me to do it at this stage, to uproot myself for a year to go study in UK, what with all my commitments, work, financial, personal, etc. But with taufiq dan hidayah dari Allah, He showed me the way. And He also gave me the strong support from my loved ones and my boss that had helped strengthened my resolve. Now, I felt like I'm on a new road with a new scenery. The possibilities of what this journey will give me is just endless. My hope is that I can experience them all and go out at the other end a better person.
I am still in that journey. This new year will be about learning, taking and experiencing as much as possible and become an improved person in all aspects - a more mature and respected individual, a more contributing member of the community and a more knowledgeable IT professional. To my loved ones, I hope they'll accept me and love me as much as before.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
It snowed!!!
I was walking to class today and saw some white, grainy-looking stuff on the side of the pathway. My heart just thumped a bit faster, is that what I think that is?
It was!! Well, it was very light, and not much that you could do with it. But, it was still nice.
Then, when I got back to my room again in the afternoon, I actually saw them falling from the sky. Except that it wasn't exactly the snowflakes falling but slush, a mixture of snow and rain. So it wasn't as pretty. But it gives me hope that maybe I'll get to see and play in the snow this winter. :D
I need to think now whether I should get a snowboot or not. hmmm....
It was!! Well, it was very light, and not much that you could do with it. But, it was still nice.
Then, when I got back to my room again in the afternoon, I actually saw them falling from the sky. Except that it wasn't exactly the snowflakes falling but slush, a mixture of snow and rain. So it wasn't as pretty. But it gives me hope that maybe I'll get to see and play in the snow this winter. :D
I need to think now whether I should get a snowboot or not. hmmm....
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I am feeling...
Bloated.
Really, really bloated.
If it's because of my period, then this is indeed a new symptom for me. It's not that I am not eating. I do eat, a lot now that it's winter :p. But yesterday and today, during dinner, I can't seem to eat coz I am feeling so bloated. Food just could not go in there anymore. I tried exercising, heh, but all it did was make me sleep. And I woke up today, still feeling bloated, aarrghh...
On the good side of it, though, I am eating less for dinner. :)
Really, really bloated.
If it's because of my period, then this is indeed a new symptom for me. It's not that I am not eating. I do eat, a lot now that it's winter :p. But yesterday and today, during dinner, I can't seem to eat coz I am feeling so bloated. Food just could not go in there anymore. I tried exercising, heh, but all it did was make me sleep. And I woke up today, still feeling bloated, aarrghh...
On the good side of it, though, I am eating less for dinner. :)
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